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2006-01-10T05:21:05Z

I'm being torn apart thats all i'm goin to say. Don't think you know cuz you don't. Don't talk about it cuz you don't know all there is to say. All I konw is that there needs to be a drastic change in my life. IDK what but i hope I don't regrette it. I feel worthless, pathetic, guilty, and alone. I gotta let it out somehow thank God i remembered this damn journal was here.

just an update

2005-12-22T23:27:27Z

Just finished my last paper of the semester. 5 weeks of fun fun fun ahead. College is definately this shit. Me brian and jay are gon get buff as hell, haha. And you better believe it. I should make a movie while i got all this time off. Next week I'm buying a new laptop I think so I'm pretty excited. Well "time to make the doughnuts" I'm off to work. GO PATRIOTS!!!!!!

please please please

2005-10-07T05:45:40Z

Follow me everything is alright
I'll be the one to tuck you in at night
And if you
Want to leave I can guarantee
You won't find nobody else like me

Follow me everything is alright
I'll be the one to tuck you in at night
And if you
Want to leave I can guarantee
You won't find nobody else like me

DITCHED

2005-09-16T04:31:01Z

DITCHED
a poem by Glen Fortin Jr.

Why would a man
stain a boy with his name
then make the boy stand
alone in the rain

Why is this boy
replaced by this man
did he not feel joy
when the boy grasped his hand

so the boy is forgotten
for a whole new life
new daughter new sons
from a new wife

what's wrong with this boy
why has the man left
what happened to love
is this just a test

the man was meant
to guide and protect
but the boy was tossed
aside like a pest

was the boy's fate
just this man's mistake
why can't this man love
why can't this boy hate

connected forever
or left in the past
look in this boy's eyes
he cannot look back

deep down the boy knows
he cannot be loved
deserving no hug
not special enough

if this man won't be with him
why whould anyone be
a boy's quest for a girl
a boy's own family

this boy tries to correct
the man's worst mistake
but alone in this world
is the boy's fate

Thank you Britt

2005-08-29T14:33:43Z

I was on a rocky path
I’d fall and crash
My soul broke from that
And then the guilt hit back
And I took a step back
Looked at who I was
And who I was becoming
Where was the love
And where was I running
I had no one to follow
To lead me right
Every night I’d fight
But I’d lose the fight
Give in and up my life
Cuz I’d hate my life
But then one night
God sent me a light
An angel
Who gave me the strength to live right
And now we’re so tight
I hope fate’ll keep her by my side
So when it’s my time to die
I can look right in her eyes
Try and hold back a cry
And with my last breath
Open my mouth up wide
And say “thank you
For always being down to ride
Making me feel good
For being good
Being me
I used to hate what it meant
To be me
But after all the time we spent
I am me
I can talk only to you
So you help me through
And your family does too
This is how I know God sent you”
And after that last breath
I’d lay my head to rest
Close my eyes and see you for the last time
But live in the love you’ve given me for all time
And never be scared or worried again
Never feel cold or lonely within
In life you gave me bliss again and again
Now I see you’ve just delivered me to heaven

By Mike Fortin

dedicated to my best friend, my angel

Love thy enemies

2005-08-26T13:59:06Z

It's easy to sacrafice yourself for those who treat you good
It's easy to love those who love you

but a real hero
will put his life on the line for his friends and enemies because it's right
a real hero doesnt hold grudges
a hero forgives
a hero thinks about others before considering how he'll feel
a hero helps not because someone has helped him before but because help is just needed

fuck me over
I'm still there for you
break my heart
I'm still there for you
leave me hangin in the dark on the side of the road
I'm still there for you
Hate me, mock me, talk shit bout me, hurt me,
abuse me, use me, bruss me,
make me cry, make me yell "God Why"
bleed me till i die, get me high,
then throw me to the side
guess what
I'm still fucking here for you

its your choice to treat me how you want to treat me
but its also always my choice to treat you how I want to

it takes a man to take a bullet for a friend
it takes a hero to take a bullet for an enemy

even a hero can fall once in a while

2005-04-04T01:12:41Z

I have no choice but to be strong
I have to be strong not just for me
but for my friends
for my parents
for everyone
I have to be the soldier
I have to fight off my pain

but sometimes its hard being strong
the fight gets tough
sometimes i need help
and i hate it
no i'm strong
can can do this
i just dont know how long i can do it for
before i collapse
and get burried in all this shit
i'm tryin to deal with
GOD.....please help me
My life gets so hard
and i barely ever see reliefe
just give me the strength

I loved you
because I needed you
I needed you
because you didnt need me
I loved you
because i thought you loved me
I loved you but never truely loved you
because I never loved myself

let go
let go
let go
just fucking let go
and never pick it up again
maybe u werent meant for this
fate is unescapable

but i'll fight forever
it will never destroy me

"sometimes it feels liek the worlds on my sholders
everyone's leaning on me
and sometimes it feels like the worlds almost over"

"sometimes you just feel tired
you feel weak
and when you feel weak
you feel like you wanna just give up
but you gotta search within you
You gotta find that inner strength
and just pull that shit outta you
and get that motivation
to NOT give up and NOT be a quitter
no matter how bad you wanna just fall flat on your face and collapse!!!"

DO YOU BELIEVE IN MAGIC???

2005-03-15T03:03:06Z

do u trust in love
or do u sit in fear
do u obsess with others
or do u love yourself
are u, u
or r u everything else but u
be yourself
live n let die
dont wish for the past
dont worry about the future
look into the present,
be who u want to be inside,
and do what u fell u gotta do
if u do that then trust me when i say
Magic will come

Now do u believe in Magic?

now listen up boys and girls...

2005-03-10T01:37:56Z

A boy cannot truely love a girl
A girl cannot truely love a boy
Only a man a woman and a woman a man

A boy doesn't know if he is a boy or a man
A man knows when he is a man and not a boy
A boy may be convinced he's a man but he isn't completely sure
That uncertainty is what makes him a boy and not a man
A man has learned to love himself and respect who he is and wishes the best for himself
A man looks after his own ass b4 neone elses
By looking after himself first that man can better look after those he loves
In order to truely love and care for someone you must first truely love and care for yourself

I was only a boy now I am a young man striving to be an old successful man
Only when this man has this road of success under his feet will he find his woman

If I really love you right now than I'll just want to be your friend
Nothing in my life is more imprtant in my future than me my family and my frieds
Girlfriends now, as much as I hate to say, will be the least important part of my future

So you know I love you when I don't want to be your boyfriend and "just" your friend
Because that means I really want you in my future
And who knows what the future might bring

I'ma man and no ones stopping me from being what I can be

2005-03-07T00:12:49Z

"I can't be your superman"... no disrespect intended but I'm done with you girls for now. It's simply not the time for me n u to be complete. This is me time its all me up in hur right now. Girls just drag me down as much as I hate to say it. It's time to make a choice, take a break from the world and focus on Mike. I'ma make you all proud don't worry. It aint the time for love, well its always time for love, but I gotta love myself more than neone else right now. It's taken me a while to relize that, but now that I have I can truely be the man that I am; and a birthday doesn't mean shit. "I think I just gotta do my own thing....Ya know?"

The Ticket - by G. Michael Fortin

2005-03-05T19:08:56Z

One day this guy went down to the liquore store. After his purchase he had a spare dollar so he bought a Power Ball ticket and stuffed it in his back pocket. Later that night during the news the Power Ball numbers were read and he remembered about the ticket. He watched the numbers and noticed he had just won 10 million dollars. He was happy. Just then a gust of wind blew his ticket out the window and there was nothing he could do to get it back. He was then extremely upset. He walked around for months missing that ticket and feeling worthless without it until he relized something. Before when he possessed the ticket and didn't know what it was worth he just shoved it in his pocket like it was nothing. However when he descovered it's great value he became blinded by it and it possessed him. When a force out of his control took the ticket from him the ticket took with it a part of him which it possessed. Realizing that his happiness is under his control and nothing or no one elses the ticket landed on the ground right by him. This time he didn't see happyness when looking at it, instead he saw what it was, just a ticket. That was the first time he saw the it for what it was and was able to really apritiate it along with himself. And he was truely happy.

eminem7891 @ 2005-02-22T09:29:00

2005-02-22T14:33:04Z

T minus 22 hours and 18 minutes

18 years ago from 7:47 am tomorow morning
a miracle happened
a star was born
and the world was never the same

freestyle, cuz i'm feeling wild and I aint keepin it mild_-_M-Y-K_-_

2005-02-17T04:48:05Z

Don't you dare ask me what's up
Cuz I stopped givin a fuck
Bout how I'm living there's just
too much shit I've just given it up
didn't mean to get my hopes up
or to ever get me choked up
you need to learn to keep this door shut
lock me up for when I wake up
cuz if I get up and see your make up
I might just hafta cut your face up
I've had it up to here with these fake sluts
giving it up but not ever giving any love
I used to ask why is living so tough
now I just relax learned to toughen it up
keep my mouth shut save my energy up
for when I'm fucked up and get fucked over
and for who ever fucks me over its all over
just wanna warn ya this knife i got here is just for ya
the damage I b planing is based on ur every phobia
expose raw guts, mop that shit up, while i ring this round ya
large intestine become a necklace on ya
soaked bones in gas for ten days
stick a match in your ass
feed ya garlic and boiled eggs
here digest this
i'll light that match as you pass that gas
napalm ass and your skeleton catches on quite fast
roll around in the grass
and my dog just shit on that
now it sticks to your back acts as a wick
from your ass too your neck lights quite quick
I'm sorry miss but this is what you get for being such a bitch

MYK 4:10 with the forewarning
take it to heart if u deside to take my own and
best believe you hurt it they'll be compensation
if you cause me agrivation bitch I just dont got the patience

with love....ha-ha >-D

>:::maybe i've been listen to a little too much slim shady lately:::

eminem7891 @ 2005-02-16T14:43:00

2005-02-16T19:47:25Z

vacations coming
hapy birthday Mike 2/23, 18 u know it
things to do:
-find a grl
-hit up the night clubs
-go to canada (drinkin age is 18)
-go clubbin again
-get a shotgun
-go c bruins sunday
-dance friday
-dance saturday
-next friday lloyde banks at lupos
-anything else that u gotta b 18 for

It's all up to God now

2005-02-15T21:46:38Z

If love is eternal, then this shouldn't be a problem.
Who knows whats on the road ahead.
If we were really meant to be then you'll be there.
If not then...

"Uh. Yea. Uh. If you love something let it go, if it
comes back to you it's yours. If it doesn't, it never was.
Hold me down baby

Either let me fly, or give me death
Let my soul rest, take my breath
If I don't fly I'ma die anyway, I'ma live on
but I'll be gone any day
Either let me fly, or give me death
Let my soul rest, take my breath
If I don't fly I'ma die anyway, I'ma live on
but I'll be gone any day

Hold me down, niggaz wanna know me now
Didn't want ta play wit' me when to show me how
No meow
Is it all about the bark?
Let the dog lose baby it's about to spark
Light up the night, like the 4th of July
Niggaz know, when I let go, niggaz die
wit' this Y and you don't know you slow like Baltimore
If you ain't tryin' ta go ya blow
I soke up all the pain and except it in silence
When I let go it's violence cause the wildest
leaves the dog barkin' up the tree for the cat
in the fog but ya'll niggaz see is the bat
Flappin' away wit' em blind like Stevy
Niggas don't hear me, still tryin' to see me
Stop being greedy, ya heard what I said
Let me go, let me flow on my bed

Either let me fly, or give me death
Let my soul rest, take my breath
If I don't fly I'ma die anyway, I'ma live on
but I'll be gone any day
Either let me fly, or give me death
Let my soul rest, take my breath
If I don't fly I'ma die anyway, I'ma live on
but I'll be gone any day

I sold my soul to the devil, and the price was cheap
A yo it's cold on this level cause it's twice as deep
But you don't hear me, ignorance is blisning and so on
Sometimes it's better to be taught dumb
Shall I go on
You don't want no real, what the deal is a mystery
How is it I can live and make history
If you don't see it then it, wasn't ment for you to see
If you wasn't born wit' it then, it wasn't ment for you to be
But you can't blame me for not wantin' to be hound
lock down in a cell wit' a soul gettin' dwelled
This is hell, go get the devil and get me the key
but can't be worst than the curse that was given ta me
It's what I live for, you take away that and I'm gone
There's a difference between, doin' wrong and being wrong
and that ain't right
Just keep it fair baby
Put me in the year, and I'll take it there baby
Yes

Either let me fly, or give me death
Let my soul rest, take my breath
If I don't fly I'ma die anyway, I'ma live on
but I'll be gone any day
Either let me fly, or give me death
Let my soul rest, take my breath
If I don't fly I'ma die anyway, I'ma live on
but I'll be gone any day

I'm a flow regardless because I'm an artist until I'm trapped
I'ma continue to hit he hardest whether I scrap or rap
Give me death but you ain't my friend
I see it in your eyes, you contemplate my end
You waitin' for that bin in the road, where you were told
that you would go, when you were old
and if you died young, it was told
So what the dilly, what it was worth
Think back 26 years, be like what of his birth
What if it was a miscarriage and I never existed
Have I given something that have been taken away you
would of missed it
Didn't know, did I persisted?
It was the call of the wild
I'm here to say what's in my heart, and you call it a style
Don't put it in the cage, don't mistreat it
You say you hunger for knowledge, here it is eat it
Another soul completed is another thought captured
Let me do my thing I got it locked wit' this rap shit

Either let me fly, or give me death
Let my soul rest, take my breath
If I don't fly I'ma die anyway, I'ma live on
but I'll be gone any day
Either let me fly, or give me death
Let my soul rest, take my breath
If I don't fly I'ma die anyway, I'ma live on
but I'll be gone any day

Or give me death, uh uh uh, or take my breath
I'ma die anyway, but I'll be gone any day
Where my niggaz?
Uh ha ha, for my niggaz"

when will this pain go away.....

'the black rose' by mike fortin

2005-02-14T16:24:30Z

rose of black
love that now lacks
a rub on a back
a hug is a slap
a kiss on the lips
the feel of the hips
this pain won't be fixed
life's just a bitch
it was once a red rose
i brushed u from ur toes
up ur body to ur nose
lacking all clothes
this is only when I close
my eye's, I suppose
that dreams come and go
even though a love flows
eternal, it bleeds you or feeds you
you need to unleash truth
let it all out
fall to ur knees too
you screem and you cry
you demand to know why
your dreams r a lie
and in them you die
you see hope is for fools
in a world without rules
starving not promised
one scrap of food
drowning you aren't given
one merciful breath
so you pray for the day
you witness your death
go out with a bang
if life doesn't drive you insane
can't dance in the rain
you slip with no cain
too old to get up
no one to help you out
all you can do is just sit
so you sit and you pout
gaveity is the force which brings us down
and alone you can't fight it
so allas you will drow
loved by many
but many don't love enough
i purchase you candy
but me you forgot
these petals i pull
does she love me or not
petals always r even
thats the reason my heart rots
like rock as a clot
i feel it has stopped
petals from the red roses
now blacker than dark

happy valentines day
worship the red rose
if you have it

BUT THE LORD NEVER GIVETH I JUST THINKETH THAT HE DID

2005-02-13T23:36:12Z

THE LORD GIVETH AND THE LORD TAKETH AWAY

dont tell me that i was wrong
but i was wasnt i
dont tell me what i wanted was the right thing
but it was wasnt it
right in front of my face
and i thought that i had figured it out
was it supposed to b how it was or was how it was holdin me back
would this b considered a step backwatrds then
or is it foward
maybe its fucking sideways who the hell knows
friends will b friends untill they find new friends
same with girlfriends
ur always there for urself
if u dont need nebodies help
ur set for life
dont u dare trust what anybody ever says in this life
because ppl lie even if they dont know it
promises shold never b
romance should have never been consieved
when i c my destany
i believe in my baby i will b freed

to my baby:
i know I'll pray for God to bless the day ur born
i know I'll pray for Him to curse the day i see ur grown
but i trust when i'm old and gray you'll be there for ur daddy
and at that moment i will b the happiest person who ever could have lived
no matter what and grl does to me or ne friend who leaves me
blood stays together
no matter who ur mommy is
and how she leaves me
i konw u will love me
becasue i will love you
more than nethign in this world including myself

cursed

2005-02-13T17:38:13Z

lonely i'm mr. lonely
i have no body to call my own
i'm so lonely
i'm mr. lonely
i have nobody to call my own
girl.....

i woke up in the middle of the night and noticed my girl wasn't by my side
coulda sworn i was dreaming.......

...ever since my grl left me my whole life went crashing

happy valentines day

cursed

2005-02-13T17:37:57Z

"The Perfect Pie" by Mike Fortin

2005-02-08T22:19:17Z

Here's a little Parable i whipped up for ya...

A wise man once tested two boys, who looked towards the man with respect, with a pie. The wise man purposely baked the pie with too much salt as to ruin its flavor. He cut two pieces out for each boy. He said to them, "I have spent many days perfecting this recepy and I intended to present it to many. Tell me how much you like it." After tasting the pie the wise man asked for the first boy's oppinon of it. The boy looked into his eyes and told him it was the best he had ever eaten. When asked the same question the secound boy told the wise man that the pie was terrible. The wise man asked the first boy why he lied to his eyes. The young man explained that he cared for the wise man and didn't want to hurt his feelings. Then the wise man asked the other young man why he looked into his eyes and critisied him so. The young man responded, "Sir, I care for you very much and respect you too much to lie to your eyes. I was concerned with what damage believing, that this pie is tasty, would hurt your reputation if you served it to many with such high expectations. My goal was not to hurt your feelings, but to protect you from humilliation." The wise man told the second boy, "it is true that you must love me for you strive to save me from dispare and are not restricted by the fear of truth." He then told the first boy, "It is true that you must hate me, for you look into my eyes with a decieteful tounge. Overcome by fear of truth you will be unable to ever help anyone make the perfect pie."

Don't ever look into my eyes and fear truth, it is unseemingly selfish.

Mortal Combat

2005-02-08T21:45:16Z

i feel it right
i know it wrong
so brews a fight
for now i'm gone
pleasure tempts
conscience deffends
but the soul it mends
while lust must win
In this moment
I cannot think
and though i know it
a destracting wink
you look at me
with extacy
breath into me
now i can't see
I now look at you
through selfish eyes
the eyes you have too
fuled by many lies
spirits high
i make you cry
out of pleasure
and soon we die

a poem by G. Michael Fortin Jr.

2005-02-08T21:25:34Z

Love Past My Smile and Past my Eyes

past my smile
past my eyes
where my spirit dwells
it stays locked up deep inside
and no one quite knows it's alive
or cares for it at all

curse this smile
curse these eyes
damn them straight to hell
distracting others from whose inside
they can't appreciate this lonely guy
they don't see this man at all

bless my smile
bless my eyes
happiness smiles sadness cries
they seem to releave what I hide
if you understand this man at all

and all the while
ur by my side
u'll walk with me through hell
fore u were able to derive
past my smile through my eyes
and love my very soul

-myk

eminem7891 @ 2005-02-07T07:00:00

2005-02-07T12:01:53Z

there's something special about me that keeps ppl away.........
I wish someone could tell me what that special thing was

eeney meeney miney moe....

2005-02-06T21:29:14Z

This is the hardest fucking decision i've ever had to make
idk what i want or what would be best
i'm hoping something will tell me what to do because i'm stumped on this one.......

i want to b treated like.....
but i miss like......
and i want to treat you like....
if u treat me like.....
and i could always see my future like....
but i want now to be like....
and my heart fluctuates like....
Decisions take too much outta me and this one is far past me.

ur eyes

2005-02-06T03:34:50Z

u see i got this feelin that i miss you
like everytime i kiss you
but this seems to be an issue
when i go to grab a tissue
suddenly it hits you
like what shoulda woulda coulda been
and still have been to this day
and i struggle to find my way
I just pray that u dont play
and its real how u feel and what u say
or is it just a game
i thought that untill ur eyes seem to give it away
unless they in it to
to fool a fool
make him feel he's worthless too
pathetic to deserve this gift such as u
and i just do not know what to do
but now i rest my head and forget about thinking if that shit was true
or just sumthing u put everyone through and i'm just a guy in a line on the side faceless name less and we r all crying
or i am unique like u said
is this something i'm about to regret